Only God Will Judge Me

I'm sick of the mainstream..

You know,
the whole brainwashing young adults
only to end up just like you.

Is that really what you're all about?
Numbers?
Money?
Power?
Fame?

It's not even about the American people anymore.
You could give a shit less!

YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!

Because if you really were, you would've heard the part you may have missed,

You know,
the "TRILLIONS OF DOLLARS IN DEBT!" part...

I will never associate myself with this mainstream of deceit;

I will never associate with ANY party whatsoever,

but I will do anything I can to preserve the honor and pride of this once great country...

.. This country has lost it's touch.. We can't agree within our own system, and your political filth is rubbing off on us.

Democrat,
Republican,
doesn't even matter!

Both parties should rot in hell!

Oops! I better catch myself.
Wouldn't want some creepy government dude to take offense to my opinion..

Psh!

Sad part is,

I'm
just
getting
started
...

I will not rest until freedom is free, justice is just, and truth is true.. Problem is, I'll never sleep..

I'm sad

I feel like I could break down and cry right now..

I miss having real friends.

I miss being with my family.

I miss my small, hick town.

I miss the country life and having space.

I miss those spontaneous moments shared among good friends.

I miss being energetic and random.

I miss that feeling of stability and security.

But above all, I miss me..

Fire and Rain

I almost forgot how wonderful a good campfire smelt until tonight.. That's the one thing I use to love when I was a kid, you know? That smell of cut logs getting burned to a crisp, sizzling the outer parts, and the musk from the moisture sets in as the smoke rises and fills the air.. Though, I never was a fan of any smoke in those days, a good fire was always a big exception. The flames would dance with the wind, and the sound of the wood cracks as an ember grows, engulfing the log and the pit with orange and blue.. As the night goes, it begins to rain (well, more like a drizzle), but even through that rain, the fire and that campfire smell lingered on..

It was so beautiful!

It just brings more of the hick out of me :D

Bleh

I haven't taken my Celexa yet.. It doesn't help that it's cold and rainy. Already missed my first class because my phone was in my car. I couldn't find it until an hour ago.. Oh well



ONTO ANOTHER RANDOM THOUGHT!!!

You know? I thought the things I came up with weren't original.. What? Do you just keep me around to talk shit behind my back only so I can find out later? That's how it usually goes in today's sick, sad world.. Why can't you just drop this and leave me alone? I always have some flaw or am at fault in almost any way possible to you, so why are you wasting your time by trying to look for more ways to make my life miserable? Hint, hint: Trying: the new "diet coke of evil!" Just one calorie, not enough.. It doesn't even fucking matter! I'm going to continue going down this path because it's a good one for a change. Not you, or anything else, is going to take away the 2 things that matter most to me; Independence and Fine Arts.

Hear me out because I'm only going to say this once.

The truth is, I don't belong here..
at all.

I can still strive for my dreams and have awesome experiences wherever I go. Only back in the day, I always thought being here was my one and only option to acquire those things.

The truth is, I don't need this..
at all.

I can still meet new people and make new friends wherever I go. Only back in the day, I always thought needing to be here was, again, my one and only option.

The truth is,
I don't want this anymore...

I don't want to sit there and have that persona of being superior just because I wasted mass amounts of dollars to get some golden ticket to wave in peoples' faces. For what?! Money? HOW FUCKING PATHETIC!!

Here's the truth, I'm done with this!

Why should I sit through all this bullshit for that? At this point, I don't give a shit if I work at a gas station for the rest of my life. I just want to get thee fuck out of here.

Don't talk.. Just listen

>B)

You know what? I discovered something today; I've always various bongs, masks, and bowls, but I never really appreciated the joint.. Until today.

I rolled a huge one..

For some reason, it made me feel more secure,
and the high?

absolutely amazing!

It took 2 hits to get to where I'm at if I hit 2 bowls!

I
FEEL
INVINCIBLE!!


And I have no idea why!


What's their left to lose? I'm wasting my time on the past and only losing more time which will then be spend saying "Shoulda, coulda, woulda."

It's time for the snake to shed it's skin.

And, I'm doing it!! And I haven't felt happier!